the way it is

have you ever heard a song or seen a building that just inspired you? that made you feel a sense of history and made you feel connected to the sea of people beyond those you know?

i give thanks for such things, for such books or songs or places or buildings that make me feel tied to huge-ness. connected.

for the past 27 years and for the rest of my life, the smell of oil of olay mingled with powder will make me see my mother's face, hear her voice. if i have two kids one day, will they agree as to what my scent is like? i don't think this is a small part of only my life. i feel like this is something beyond my life.

today is one of those days.