yawme ashara

tonight i felt:

drained
connected
peaceful
purged
surrounded
cathartic
forgiven
blessed

and this is one of my most barakati moharamm-ul-haram ten days ever. i heard things in vaaz and allowed them to sink in completely- i listened and learned and made neeyats i have not bothered to make before. i made a neeyat for the new year (the hijri one ten days ago) that i would wake up for fajr, and with taher's help, i have done that. i made a neeyat that i would pray Qur'an every day and i have done that. i made several neeyats and khuda ta'Allah tawfik apay, yari apay, i will continue to fulfill those neeyats.

i have so many emotions running through me tonight- but these are the only words i am going to write.

good night. i, like the other thousands of mumineen in america, am off to bed where i will sleep like a log.